wallawina's Diaryland Diary ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Those times where you say . Regret It's times like this, sleepless nights, where I lie awake and think of all the choices that I have made in my stupid little life. I have made some bad ones, and I have made some that have gotten me to places that are still questionably good or bad. Series of events in my life got me here, the question is, am I happy? I look back at my life and wonder if there was really ever a period of time where I was happy. Perhaps I had a sense of happiness, but was I truly happy? I know, I as a person, cannot make everyone happy. There are so many fucking roles to play, and I seldom and ever good enough. Daughter, friend, student, now girlfriend. I don't know how to play a single one right. I'm not an over achiever in any of the fields, and the sad truth is that most people at least excell in one of those areas. I test luke warm to chilly in all them areas. I bought a car today, I'm thinking if it can make it frim here to there, it can make it from there to here every now and then. I dread though that I think it's too late to makes those changes. The thing is in all odds in consideration, I would loose more leaving chicago then loose staying in chicago. The excahnge rates just seem to be a lot higher. I don't know what to do anymore... I just don't know what happiness is, and what I should do to attain it. 1:29 a.m. - 2003-07-29 ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- |
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